Beastly and being able to participate in contest makes me happy!

I don't think I'm a lucky girl but I'm a lucky contestant to be able to participate in any contests at all. Everybody is busy out there chasing after money on the roads while I am chasing after money safely in my own bedroom. How proud I am. How lucky can I get. I have two radio transistors and a mini compo portable. I got my two radio transistors from a redemption shop with coupons and everything. I had saved up and planned on it coming. I redeemed it with some extra money because my coupons wasn't enough. I finally redeemed two portable 'Empress' radio transistors. I am so proud because the shop atttendant was waiting for me and I had personally booked it.

Beastly ~ Somebody like my own hubby, was so stubborn and proud, arrogant and selfish and self-esteemed out of ill-wit, conceited, would make me proud to be 'able' to change. Men don't change. Only women and the ladies do it. Believe me. I've had it all. Trust me on this. I don't blame them at all because all men are born alike in this world. I read them in books. In encyclopaedias. It's not that I did not do my job well, it's not that I've had my revenge, it's not that I'm lazy, if I can change for the love of mankind and for the sake of my marriage, why can't you? And the poorest of them all, we just can't talk. We can't and he, would not talk about it. Why blame it on me?

I've had it all. I'd walked out of shame, but for pride and marriage had stood right up to it, for the love of the couple,our marriage, and he wouldn't talk or even open up on me with his problems,it's his and his very own his, not money, himself. He just wouldn't talk. I'd bribe about our children, he'll take it because his pride was on his off-spring, his children ONLY, what about his wife?

He doesn't love me, says my Mom. He had never loved me, said my sister. But all men are the same, I've read in wikipedias, in dictionaries, in stories, in myth and fables, I STILL WISH THAT HE WOULD CHANGE. But he wouldn't talk it out to his wife, because it's his "pride". I am waiting for a miracle from the sky,......like "Beastly"! If I can love him, he would change back to his handsome prince-like state and face - wow, how charming! Beautiful isn't it, but could he be back to his old self again after some time????